Gym Journal: WTH!!!
Hi everyone! I apologize for my hiatus, but life happens. What's more important is that all is well! I decided to add to my gym journal because there's nothing more shocking, disappointing, sad, annoying , and angering than to have outfits prepared to wear only to find yourself not looking like you did a year ago in the same pieces! WTH!!! Sure I could go into denial and say my clothes shrunk, but I already used that excuse, and unfortunately I know the truth.
"How does that happen?! How did I not see it happening?! DARN YOU SPANDEX..."
Yes I put a few pounds during that time my mom was in the hospital because I wasn't working out. I get it! I had a family emergency and I dropped everything, and I do not regret doing so. What I do regret is all that hard work I put in outside and inside the gym was eaten away, literally, without me even realizing I had gained all that I lost back! How does that happen?! How did I not see it happening?! DARN YOU SPANDEX for fitting with ease and making me think I was still keeping my weight in check!! That was only part of the problem, I wore gym clothing and leggings with full shirts during those days at the hospital. I wanted to be comfortable and I was. Clearly I was just a little too comfortable, but that's neither here nor there.
"...Sunday morning came and reality opened my eyes in a way I have never experienced."
I am back starting from where I began instead of where I left off, but that's ok. I started working out a few weeks ago and made a promise to myself that I would do less complaining than I did last year. So far so good, I have been able to keep my word. I felt good about that, I felt I was making strides in my progress, but Sunday morning came and reality opened my eyes in a way I have never experienced.
"...I had been kind of lazy about it. Sometimes you're just tired and don't have the energy..."
After trying on my clothes, and seeing what I saw and feeling what I felt, that pissed me off! Yes, my cousin, who is my personal trainer, told me to step it up with the cardio. Truth be told, I had been kind of lazy about it. Sometimes you're just tired and don't have the energy to take on one more thing that drains time and energy out of you. That was my excuse.
"...and it's scared because I now see it, I am blind no more."
It's amazing how we can see what we want to see, because I really thought I was seeing a difference in my appearance. I even asked him about it that Saturday, and he responded with a smile and a "no". Of course I felt he was lying to me to encourage me to put in more work, that is until Sunday happened. So here I am, back to square one in a face off with my enemy, FAT. In one side of the ring there's me, ready to fight, on the other side of the ring there's my nemesis, fat, and it's scared because I now see it, I am blind no more. I am going to put in that extra cardio time and FINALLY get to where I should have been. Sometimes it's like a light switch that comes on in your head that awakens you to everything you need to see. I'm just glad that it finally came on. And now that I see....Oh it's on!! TBC...
xo, M&C
